My mom had me later in life when she wasn’t mentally stable. She suffered with mental illness but was an intelligent woman and nurse. She had 4 strokes my senior year of high school. I begged her siblings for help and typically they have always helped my mom by making sure I had what I needed and wanted but they would not help me with simply sitting with her for 45 minutes so I could sleep. If my mom was awake I was awake. (We thought she had a brain tumor and were waiting for results that got pushed back so she would be all over the house 24/7 trying to walk to “Europe” on thanksgiving). She ends up at a skilled facility in my town and I rush into adulthood fast and without guidance. I had to give up my “fun” years due to being my moms only visitor for 4 years. If I wasn’t working or at school I was with my mom. I sacrificed relationships, my own needs, and money I didn’t have to provide. No help. My mom passed away and it seemed for the first 2 years I was “like their own” with one uncle and his wife. I felt loved. I have not been invited to family events because “it’s immediate family only”( meaning her ADULT kids who still live at home.) I felt lonely and was missing my mom wanting to talk to someone they told me I couldn’t come over because they were watching a soap opera that she had recorded. Easter just passed and I have not heard from them. (I didn’t call because I was depressed that no one called). My uncles birthday I came by to tell him happy birthday in the middle of me giving him a gift he whips out his phone calls someone and says “I’ll be there in 5 minutes” it was not important so my aunt scalded him but at that point I was pissed and left before I started to cry. I am just tired of feeling like I’m not good enough. Am I the asshole for simply cutting them out of my life?