My cousin who is 33(f) is married to a 36(m). They have two kids one from her previous marriage the other with him. They also have her brother who lives there 39(m). I have been diagnosed with bipolar. I however am 27(m) single no kids and I live alone. I recently had to move to her town bc I was going to get evicted due to being manic. I’ve been really working on myself this year and I just had a huge depressive episode that I caught in time and am now working on getting back to where I was.

Growing up I was responsible for watching my grandma and she watched me. I also had to cater to my mom’s needs and then in high school and after I had to take care of her. This time right now is the only time I have only had to worry about me. And my future.

She recently asked me if her husband took a different shift would I watch the kids from 3-5 I said “not at this time bc I’m not there plus I have a shit ton of appointments” she said not right now.

I want to figure out my future. Go to the gym,get healthy mentally,physically, and spiritually. Maybe even go back to school. If I tell her I don’t want to am I am asshole?

I want to add my cousins brother LIVES there and helps out less than I do.

Edit: she try’s to isolate me away from family in our home town. She has excluded me from a huge cousin trip bc she needed someone to watch the dogs but one of my other cousins said other wise. She just wants me to be able to take care of her. She has 2 other adults in the house that can help. I’m one person and have no one.