So, I've been playing World of Warcraft for 18 years now. I don't pretend to be someone I'm not in game, but I am honestly my true self online & in real life my mom always shushed me or told me to "stop making a scene" when I'm just an actress/comedian at heart.

Anyway, I have this on again, off again friend of about 2 years, Agatha*. She's a few years younger than me. We met on FB dating. She's a lesbian & I'm bi curious. We've never been together intimately but I think she secretly has the hots for me. Also, we fight a lot. In the whole 2 years of us as friends, we have blocked each other more than not. Probably like 10 times each.

Agatha* wants to get a computer so she can play WoW with me. At first I kept thinking that it would be fun. I could introduce her to all of my LGBTQ friends, and I was hoping that she'd find someone else to complain to about all her shit in life. I was thinking that if she got the game, she wouldn't sleep as much (she sleeps a ton bc her body aches or bc she's bored & has nothing else to do).?

But now that it's almost 3 months away from her getting a computer I'm starting to think this is a terrible idea. WoW has always been my safe space to completely be myself with my friends that don't know my family or how I was raised. I'm worried that she's gonna make me hate WoW & want to hide from her when I'm playing somewhere else & don't want her to know where I am.

Agatha* complains a ton. We're both morbidly obese & bipolar. We both also have a personality disorder, BPD. When she's down & I'm up or vice versa, things NEVER go well. When we're both manic, we have an absolute blast together! Agatha* is 420 friendly & brings me presents often. My mom thinks I'm using her. I often think she's using me.

Anyway, I kind of think I should tell her that I don't want to teach her to play WoW or want her in my guild, but I don't know how well it'll go. I figure she won't understand & will block me. I don't want to upset her. But I also don't want to have to teach her 18 years worth of video game knowledge & introduce her to all my mature older friends. (Agatha* is like 32 & suuuuuper immature!) Also, I noticed recently that when she wants to talk & I'm talking, she'll hold up her hand as if saying for me to shut up so she can talk. She also interrupts or will just talk over me if she thinks I'm talking to much. It is terribly annoying.

Anywho, what should I do? Should I tell her the truth about how I feel so she doesn't waste her money on a computer game that I'll never want to play with her? Or should I just calm my own tits & think about someone less fortunate than me & try to make her life better? Any advice would be greatly appreciated, thanks!