TLDR; My DX partner and I broke up. We still live together. They are giving me emotional whiplash, and I’m scared to bring it up. Need advice.

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I am 26F, non ADHD w/ Narcolepsy & PTSD. My ex partner is 29M DX ADHD, taking medication.

We broke up two weeks ago, and were together for three years. We still live together. Our communication just fell apart. I lost my patience regarding his blame shifting, and lack of self awareness.

I was trying so hard, and he resented me. Being together all the time had never felt so lonely. I didn’t feel loved anymore. The breakup was supposedly a mutual decision, but to me it seemed like we discussed taking a break once, and he immediately switched to “single mode”.

Since that, I really can’t keep track of what’s going on. Some days we have sex, which we both consent to. But then others, he treats me with only professional courtesy while I talk. Some afternoons he wants to be around me. Other times, I think we are eating a meal together, and he will take it in to his office with no explanation.

Because of the nature of our past experiences with each other, I’m cautious of asking for clarity. It seems since the breakup, I’ve been asking permission from him a lot.

Our protocol has always been that during scheduled solo recharge times, I save my list of inquiries/discussions until after. We try to fit in 1-3 hrs of this a day, but since the breakup it’s constant.

His gaming station is set up in the room I have to walk through to access our back yard. The new rule is that I should knock and not talk to him on my way through unless I ask first, preferably over text. Even when he says he’ll do things for me, I’m scared to ask so am not achieving my goals for the day.

Is this just me? I have this inner fear that maybe I’m not understanding the boundaries. Am I being clingy now that I’m not his “official” partner? Please help.

TIA