I have an assignment due in 5 hours and it is a final essay that I haven't done anything for. I am so sick of working like this. I have just panic cried for a long time, my brain is overwhelmed and tired and can't focus and now I am just so disappointed.

I am so tired, so tired. So tired of all the times I have to perform mental gymnastics to do basic tasks. So tired of loving uni and loving learning and still being unable to start assignments on time. I feel so much shame and guilt because it is my fault and I do this to myself every time. If I could just give the assignments the best shot, I'd be getting better grades. This one has definitely already tanked because there's no way I can submit a 3.5k essay with bare minimum research.

I just want to curl up in foetal position and not move till I graduate and have my life magically sorted.