Hi,

Southeast Asia where I live. Participated due to lifelong depression, anxiety, anger, PTSD. Diagnosed borderline personality disorder and divorce both in last year. Saw this as my last chance after years and years of therapy and meds.

220lbs, 6'1" bodybuilder/runner. Given larger doses than normal.

Clear intention set and no issue with letting go, even with the 5 MEO-DMT 'deaths.'

2 nights, 3 days. Shaman and sitters. $985, very rough commune.

-Kambo 2x (1st time: 10 burns on shoulder (double normal dose), 2nd time: 1 burn in each ear)

-Bufo 5MEO-DMT (actual toad resin) (breakthrough doses) 2x (once deep in a cave with water pools)

-Ayahuasca 2x

-Psilocybin 2x (3.5 to 4.5gm shrooms each time)

-Mad Honey 1x

-Acupuncture 1x

-Massage 2x

-Meditation 1x

-Breathing exercises 1x

Bufo and shrooms taken together both times.

No bad trips. No spirit world hallucinations, other than the 2 5MEO-DMT 'deaths' and some shadows and lights appearing to be different things due to the Ayahuasca and shrooms at the same time.

The only time I puked/pooped was the first kambo trip, likely due to the double dose.

Recorded everything I remember. Hard to put into words. Something very profound happened that I'm trying to make meaning out of. I have been living in rock bottom's basement for so long. Hoping for turbocharged neuroplasticity and long-lasting improvement.